Domesticating the ‘wild’

Domestic:

• of concern to or concerning the internal affairs of a nation
• of or relating to the home
• of or involving the home or family
• converted or adapted to domestic use
• a servant who is paid to perform menial tasks around the household
• produced in a particular country

Its funny to actually look up the [MANY] definitions of a word we hear in classes, passing conversation, or maybe just in our heads. For me anyway, the definition doesn’t always give me the meaning I am looking for. Or perhaps the meaning I have given the word has been derived from my own personal experience and has a creative twist on it so that the word revolves around my particular world. Independent thought is a wonderful thing. When I was growing up and tried conceptualizing where I saw myself in the future, it was always an unclear vision with no real parameters. I wasn’t sure where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do, but who doesn’t think that way? At least to some degree. Its funny that the thought of settling down in one place, especially somewhere in Virginia, never crossed my mind.  Settling down meant that I would be passing up so many other opportunities, opportunities that may never be available again! (insert frantic irritability and biting of nails here)…the grass is always greener, right?  After my 5800 mile drive with innumerable hours spent alone driving, I came to some new conclusions.  I crave having a home base.  Not just a friend that will offer up their couch with the option of making it my permanent home address(thanks to all of you anyway!!!!), or a free place to stay at a parent’s house, but a place to call my own.  ‘Place’ is a liberal term.  I would honestly be happy right now with a plot of land with trees, water and a place to set up a platform tent or hang my hammock. I don’t ask too much.  If I could pay all of my bills on time because I receive the statements in the mail, or the automatic withdraw I set up works, I would probably lose a few gray hairs.  So, where does this put me?  It leaves me with the desire to hammer out a 5 year plan with this in mind and make this dream a reality.  (very interesting concept, dreams vs. reality…we can talk about that later) For the time being, this may mean not traveling so much…boo!, possibly settling into a more full time job that will allow me so save a few duckets, and creating a positive mind set that isn’t just “sucking it up” to get through this period in my life but looking ahead to see what I could possibly learn next!  I feel happy with the choices I’ve made thus far and am hoping that the facets of life I’ve been tapping into will lead me in the right direction.  My wild nature may have settled down for the moment, but I will always remain wild at heart.

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